Beating Myself Up

I know it is not healthy for the mind to delve on things in the past.
You know... like choices you made that you regret, but you cannot change it now.

Well... I am not regretting my decision regarding Gibbet. The doctor told me she recommended putting Gibbet to sleep. She told me that it would not be fair to Gibbet to really even attempt treatment because her chances of surviving at all were extremely grim.

I made my decision based on this information and the X-Rays I had seen. She looked like she was in bad shape. But... I fear perhaps I was a tad rash. I did not take any good time to think about what was happening.

In retrospect, I feel like this was a very bad decision. Gibbet has always been a good fighter, and I cannot help but wonder if she would have been able to fight this too.
I know I should not be thinking like this, but I cannot help it.

I miss Gibbet.

What do I do now?
Grrrr.